Is he for me Lord? If not then, who? I don’t want to go through the ups and downs again. I think being in a relationship is frightening, there is no certainty. But Lord, I know Your love abounds. And you have a plan for me. Be it here, now, then or never. May Your will, and Your will alone be done. Cover me with an extra dosage of assurance in Your precious promises, in Your truths, in Your love when I shake. Affirm me and restore me. In Jesus name, Amen.
I miss you. I miss you very much and I cannot imagine what things are to be like. Its like we are in limbo, hanging and waiting. You have been and will always be a big part of my life. I told you that when I said those three words, I meant them. And I still do.
Be safe, and I’ll see you again.
And then it comes to an end, the same end we meet at every junction. Love is for the fearless, I’m not ready for that because human love is selfish. I need Jesus, I need His love not others.
I really wanted to talk to you tonight, I really wanted to know how much time we could spend together given our tight schedules. I hear you are gonna be confined after Wallaby, I don’t know when and I don’t know for how long. Am I now the last to know? But I guess I lost the right to these things. Send me farewell, send me forever, cover my head in a pillow and watch the feathers dry.
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.