Is he for me Lord? If not then, who? I don’t want to go through the ups and downs again. I think being in a relationship is frightening, there is no certainty. But Lord, I know Your love abounds. And you have a plan for me. Be it here, now, then or never. May Your will, and Your will alone be done. Cover me with an extra dosage of assurance in Your precious promises, in Your truths, in Your love when I shake. Affirm me and restore me. In Jesus name, Amen.
And then it comes to an end, the same end we meet at every junction. Love is for the fearless, I’m not ready for that because human love is selfish. I need Jesus, I need His love not others.
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket, safe, dark, motionless, airless, it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable.